I don't think I could feel any shittier. We have been very indecisive whether or not to keep Fiona, and last night we just knew it wasn't going to work. I planned on taking her back this morning, Usually I try to get Rick to do my dirty work, but in this case, I wanted to do it myself since I had been pushing to rescue another dog. Rick loves dogs more than me and I figured it would just be too hard for him. Which it was, but he decided he wanted to go instead. So he did. When he went, a woman behind the counter started verbally abusing him and picking him apart for bringing back the dog. The dog we had only had for three days, had paid to spay, had paid extra to fix her umbilical hernia that we didn't HAVE to pay for-but wanted to, along with gave them a ninety dollar donation. Another woman came from the back room, the woman who we had dealt with when we decided to get Fiona. She was really nice and understood from the beginning that we may not be able to keep her, but desperately wanted it to work.
As Rick surrendered Fiona, the bitch behind the counter that had been giving him problems, demanded he sign a paper that said it was okay to euthanize her for any reason. Rick was horrified. After all, this place does boast about being a no-kill shelter. It must have just been protocol, but still. Seriously!
All I can say is that Fiona was an awesome dog, a playful little puppy that made me laugh. She got along great with Alabama, and had a very sweet temperament. But having 4 dogs changed the dynamic drastically, and Rick and I noticed it fast. Cash became very withdrawn and depressed. Wouldn't play for anything. Ruby started getting pinned in a corner by Fiona and Alabama both. And since Ruby wouldn't roll over and submit, she would just become terrified. And Alabama had never been like that to Ruby before. And then the baby began to cry because Fiona would run off with his Hot Wheels, or other toys. He began closing his bedroom door behind him as he played. Mind you that he just turned two in June! She would cover him in kisses and a few playful nips. That was enough. The whole house felt stressful, the dynamic had changed. Alpha dogs were no more and the big dogs had begun to take over. So we made the right decision for our family, even though our hearts are sore and we both feel like crying. Her sad little eyes will forever scar my soul. Or at least it feels like it right now. I know what we did was right. Rick even commented when he got home, how the house just feels so much more mellow. And it does. No more stress, just guilt.
I just checked the pound website, and she's already up. So hopefully she will find a good home soon. I know that I will keep checking it until she's found a home too. I just won't be able to help myself. Fuck, I'm a crazy dog lady, what else can I say?















